Despite reasons for independence for Scotland far outweighing those to stay with Westminster calling the shots there are still far too many voters too scared to take the leap.
It is something that has weighed heavily on my conscience over the past few months. So much so that, for the first time in my life I actually volunteered to help the Yes campaign. A decision I will be happy to be known for. In the face of relentless negative press and media, the unbearable viciousness over wanting to see any and all Yes voters beaten down, I can say I stood up for what I believed in. I let myself be counted, be open to ridicule because of my desire to live in an actual self-governing country. Not an add on referred to as a region.
There are many reasons but mostly Trident, House of Lords and land reform - none of which will be dealt with while we are still part of the UK. I'm not particularly bothered by oil, I'd rather not have a currency union or for that matter, the Queen. If we give up this opportunity then how can anyone say they are proud to be a Scot? We either have the collective balls to manage ourselves or we slink back in to the corner to grumble and whine every time Westminster pass down yet another decision that affects us.
My dilemma. Having seen the way some No voters conduct themselves, an aggressive smugness that is all about squashing the opposition rather than putting forward a positive vision of the union - if they win then how can I continue to raise my sons in such a society? I don't think I can.