As I had thought I'd posted some memories of our latest holiday in warm and wonderful Lanzarote, made harder by the fact I did not want to come home at all, there is always that to look forward to doing at some point. However of late my concern has been lack of time.
I sometimes feel that one of the major symptoms of ME is how much time it steals. While I slow down the world continues apace and I cannot run to catch up because...well...I cannot run.
I need to develop some way of making a living from freelancing, enough for us to live off of with maybe some left over to enjoy a couple of holidays a year. My savings are almost gone, yet finding the courage not to have a panic attack at the thought of someone not paying up or things going disastrously wrong is almost overwhelming and naturally there is no help out there to guide me through it, to give me my old tenacity back.
One thing I would love to do, but lack the talent and time to progress very far, is to be an artist. I'm filled with envy and inspiration when I see others do what I wish I could. At the moment this is how well I can complete a pastel:
Errors, errors, everywhere! I need to get better, not for anyone else but for myself.